Friday, April 15, 2011

Unexpected Answers

I would gladly take kidney stones again anyday over the horrid HSG experience I encountered yesterday.

I arrived at the hospital at 7:00 to register. From there, I went back to Radiology and waited for about 10 minutes before being called back. I was kind of bummed my sweet husband couldn't go back with me, when they called me back to change. From there, I went to the room the procedure would be done. My doctor ran about 45 minutes last so I struck up conversation with the Rad Tech. She was a success story; I always love hearing those! She had an HSG last October, with slightly blocked tubes. They were able to clear out with the dye during the procedure and she got her BFP in November. She was great to talk too!

So the doctor gets there, I'm anxiously awaiting on the table. I slide to the end.....spread, deep breath and there went the speculum. It's always uncomfortable for me, but manageable. They slide me back under the x-ray and from that point I really don't remember much other than I thought I was about to die. The pain that I experienced, is undescribable. My hands clamped on to the table while my midsection thrust up in the air, hoping the pain would stop. I was moaning in pain, I know. It. was. horrid. They kept telling me to breathe through it, it would be ok. This lasted for what I thought to be 2 minutes, which seems like hour when your in pain. They at that point explained to me that my tubes were blocked and they were trying to flush open with the dye. Before I could even breath from the first round, the pain was back, one last attempt to unclear my tubes. No luck.

I sat up, in tears. I was queezy and honestly, to the point of passing out. They were very sympathetic and ensured I was ok before going over the results. I was cramping SO bad at that point. It was just horrible.

Results: My left tube is 100% blocked. My right tube 90% blocked.

I never understood after 12 years of being with my husband and 10 years of activly pursuing a pregnancy, why they didn't do an HSG before my first IUI in July 2009. Especially after finding out these results, It kind of angered me for a split second. But instead of dwelling on the past, we decided to stop our current treatment [today is cd7 in which we were to start shots] and wait for a new cycle to start; surgery will be scheduled at that time. We are very, very happy and hopeful to have possibly identifed the main factor in our inability to conceive. Being diagnosed with Tubal Factor Infertility has a high success rate of conception, post-op, if there is no further damage to the tubes and the blockage can be removed. In fact, I read the rates are 60% within the 6-months following surgery. So, knowing we are going from 0% to 60% sounds awesome to us! We can begin trying again the first cycle post surgery, if I've recovered well.

So, that's where we are. Another short wait but we have more hope now that we've ever had.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

HSG Scheduled

My HSG is scheduled for tomorrow morning at 7:15. I'm so nervous. You Tube and Google doesn't do much for calming ones nerves. It's a quick procedure that I've heard leaves you painfully crampy for the day. I'll take it, though! This will bring any issues to light and "clear out the cobwebs" in my tubes. IUI's are most successful the first 3 months following an HSG. I'm taking the day off to rest tomorrow.

I'm excited.

One more step closer to starting our family.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Here we go....

So after a long 50 day cycle, including 5 days of Provera and a 4 day wait, my cycle finally arrived April 8th! I don't think I was ever so anxious for it to get here....and hope it's the last one for 9-months. ;)

I started Femara yesterday [cd 3-7] and will advance to Repronex, cd 8-10. My HSG is scheduled for Wednesday, depending on status of flow. Hopefully everything will be where it's supposed to be and normal and any tiny debris will be cleared out for a successful cycle. The IUI success rate is at it's highest within 3 months of an HSG. I'm hoping ♥ My IUI will be either next Tuesday or Wednesday, depending on follie maturity at Sunday's ultrasound.

We ordered our donor sperm today and I'll have my follie scan this Sunday. Last cycle I had 5 eggs, perfect lining and Progesterone was at it's highest. I hope I have 5 or more eggs this cycle as well. I'm so nervous. This journey is emotionally draining and my mind never stops. I'm either obsessing over the twinging in my ovaries, baby names, nursery themes. Wanting this soooooooooooooo bad, it's so hard not to have your every thought consumed. 

If you could say a little prayer for us, we would be so grateful.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

And we're off!

We are officially on our way to our 4th fertility treatment. The band has provided awesome, awesome results and with my weight loss - I feel comfortable to move forward. Hopefully it has reversed some, if not all, of the PCOS symptoms. I feel so, so confident this could be our month. What a wonderful 10th year wedding gift, a positive pregnancy test?! The gift of a precious baby! The beginning of a family....I'm so excited!

As protocol requires I had to take a pregnancy test last night in order to start Provera today, which will induce my cycle since I'm on cd41. It was negative, of course, and so the nurse called first thing this morning and had already phoned in my Rx to my pharmacy. I stopped in on the way to work and day 1 pill, success.

Our last treatment, which has been almost a year ago, I weighed 258.8. I've lost 25% of my weight and now weigh in at 198.3.

God leads our journey and knows our hearts desires. I pray it be his will to bless us with such an incredible gift. Amen.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Yes, I'm still alive.

So I probably have no followers left. Yikes! In the event I do, I hope all have been successful in your fertility journey. I have so much to catch up on.

What a wonderful year we've had. We are moving forward with our 4th fertility treatment as soon as my next cycle comes. April holds our 10th Wedding Anniversary and what a blessing it would be to get our BFP! I had Gastric Lapbanding the end of 2010 and have lost over 60 lbs. I am now in the 100s and am very hopeful that it will aid in our fertility journey.

I'm excited to see what God has in store for us.

Friday, July 16, 2010

dropping by to say hi

Sorry I went MIA; we've taken 2 months off after our last BFN :( We will start again next month, Lord willing. I am happy to report that this last month I had a perfect 28 day cycle ON MY OWN - which means for the first time in my life, I ovulated on my own! What a blessing!

Thanks for all the sweet comments and concerns; sorry I left everyone hanging. 

Looking forward to catching up next month! I hope everyone has had lovely months and many success stories; I really can't wait to get updated.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Third time our charm?

TTC update: We had our third (and hopefully last) IUI this morning; everything went wonderful. Our sperm count was 18million; which was wonderful for a donor purchase! That's the highest count we've had and are so excited! So far this cycle has had all good numbers! Hopefully my next two tests, P4 (6/1) and the Beta (6/8) will be perfect as well. This could be our month! The chance for a singleton with 5 follies/IUI are 50-60%; that's up from 10% with 1-2 follies.

"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths". Romans 3:5-6

Weigh in: I lost 3.6 lbs. my first week!

Feeling beachy: 7 days left; aaaah....i.cannot.wait.